Owning my own business and being my own boss has always been my goal.
I went through a number of different 9-5 jobs, hating them more and more as the years went by. I knew this wasn't how I wanted to live my life, and there had to be more out there. And I was right. I have never suited anything less than 9-5.
A year on from going full-time with my business and I've never looked back. But as with everything in life, it's not all rainbows and butterflies.
When you're growing your business by yourself, you tend to take anxiety and stress as the norm. Emotional overwhelm can become second nature and you kind of 'forget' how tough this journey can be.
It's at times like this when you need to often take a step back, hit the pause button and re-assess. You are your business' biggest asset, and when you're not functioning well, neither does your business.
Sometimes, this is easier said than done and reality when you have bills to pay, content to create, strategies to execute it can become too much.
This has been me for the last two weeks.
I absolutely take for granted the toll that growing a brand over the last three (almost four) years has taken on me. On my relationships, my loved ones, my social life and myself.
I can't actually remember the last time I FULLY switched off from work (including my two week break in Australia. Yes I wasn't posting or doing any admin, but I was definitely still strategising, brainstorming and planning in my little head).
Another somewhat 'taboo' subject many entrepreneurs don't talk about is inconsistent income. You will have months where you make £300-£400 and other months where you make £3k plus!
The stress of that alone could lead someone to a nervous breakdown. But there is a silver lining.
It makes you so much more aware of your relationships to money including your money blocks, limited beliefs around money, and all the ways you've conditioned yourself to believe unhealthy things about wealth.
Another thing we tend to do is compare ourselves WAY TOO MUCH to other entrepreneurs. You start to judge yourself because you think she's further along than you. More successful than you. Rolling in dollar bills (technically ££ for me). Getting more likes/engagements and comments.
The list is endless, and it makes you feel like shit. Because in that moment you forget about how far you've come, all the challenges you've faced (most likely by yourself) and successfully overcome. You forget about the amazing success you've manifested, the clients you've worked with (regardless of how many. A client is a client!). You forget that you are f*cking amazing.
Guilty, guilty again.
So you have a little cry, realise you're being WAY too hard on yourself and use those insanely powerful mindset tools and mindfulness practises, and give yourself a pat on the back.
It's not easy growing a business, but you didn't choose it because you thought it would be easy. You chose this path because you wanted to make an impact, and if you can show up everyday with the intention of helping just ONE person that day... you're smashing it.